Friday, January 24, 2014

Bittersweet Day

Actually, this just might be the saddest day of my life. I know I should be happy. And if I was a perfect human, I might just be. But I'm not. And right now I am grieving more than ever. I just found out that my sweet baby has been matched. I was praying that someday we would be his forever family. But I also prayed that whatever was best for my boy and for God's will to be done. But I have been sobbing and sobbing. And I'm scared for my boy. He will be so scared with that transition. He won't understand. But I will be praying for his heart. And for holy spirit to be with him. And for God to take him in his arms and help him transition over to the family that will love him forever. I pray that he feels an overwhelming calm and "knowing" that this is his family. I pray for my heart and that I am allowed to watch him grow. And to share with his family all the memories we created and all the pictures and videos; so they can this way have a piece of his life before them.
I love my sweet Tommy. My forever son. He will always be my boy.


  1. I haven't checked in on your blog in a long while......sending hugs and prayers through tears as I can only imagine the heartache.

  2. So sorry to hear of your family struggles. I'll keep him and your family in my prayers.

  3. Sending hugs to both of you ladies. Thank you for your kindness.